So I have a few thoughts before Trinity faces surgery today...
Last night before Trinity and I shut the lights off for bed, her nurse and I had a very interesting conversation. But at the end of our conversation she asked me, "Do you feel pity?". I asked, "For Trinity?", she said, "No, for yourself?". Hmmm... I actually had to think about this for a couple seconds. To be honest, I would have said no a few weeks ago, but over the last week, especially Monday night, I developed this "poor me" attitude. She really opened my eyes and by just asking me that one question, she spoke Truth to me. One thing Shannon and I have always strived for throughout the 7 years of Trinity's life, is that we never let others feel pity for us. That they would see the joy that Trinity brings to our lives, and despite our circumstances, we are just as happy and blessed as the person sitting next to us with 3 healthy kids. This situation we are in right now is definitely not ideal, but what's faith if your living in the valley? God wants me to look at this mountain we are climbing and rejoice through every step and trial we face.
Another reminder God placed on my heart was my theme "words" for the year 2015. Back in January, our women's ministry team each came up with a theme word and verse for the year 2015. This was hard for me, because I wanted to know for sure that the word and verse were both something God wanted me to focus on. After much thought and prayer, God gave me words and a verse. One of my words was, perseverance: steady persistence in a course of action, a purpose, a state, etc., especially in spite of difficulties, obstacles, or discouragement. At the time that He gave me this word I really wondered why, but now I see. Sometimes we run the race of life and challenges occur. We may get injured along the way and the road might be rough, but we are called to persevere through it all. Despite how difficult the last 3 weeks have been, I'm going to continue this race with faith, perseverance and joy. Yes I said "JOY", because there is a plan much bigger than the one I currently see and I may never see all that is accomplished through His plan, but I trust that nothing in ever wasted with God.
Surgery is scheduled for 11:30 today. So far no new bacteria has grown from the cultures. The plastic surgeon is hopeful that he can close the wound without doing a skin graph, but he won't know for sure until he gets in there and works with it. If all goes as planned today, we will be discharged on Sunday or early part of next week. She will still go home with IV antibiotics for a couple weeks.
"Do you not know that in a race all the runners run, but only one receives the prize? So run that you may obtain it." 1 Corinthians 9:24
"Humble yourselves, therefore, under God's mighty hand, that he may lift you up in due time. Cast all your anxiety on him because he cares for you." 1 Peter 5:6-7